Don't Blink

First and Foremost, we just returned from Vacation and it was Awesome! sure, I would have loved for my parents (who were in Hawaii celebrating their 30th annviersary) and my big bro (who unfortunately has to choose his time off very wisely due to trials and all that other fancy lawyer stuff) to have joined us, but it was still a great time away.  My little sis, "Aunt K" joined us for the week and she was such a nice addition.  Not only do we enjoy her company, but she allowed Steven and I to sneak away a bit and do some fun things together. We hopped on our bikes and rode around the Island and even rode down to the beach and just enjoyed some time together walking and talking.  It's the little things, right?!  I realized two things during our time together: First, How out of shape I really am. Second, In my attempt to add some "real cardio" back to my workout regimen, I realized running is NOT for nursing mommas.  If any other mommas out there have any secrets please fill me in, but until then I think I'll stick to yoga and speed walking :)

Aunt K provided a very eclectic library of music for our trip also.  She is about to start her senior year and she definitely keeps us entertained and on our toes!  You know we've been letting her control the radio when my hubby randomly busts out with "Shawty is an eenie minnie minee mo lover." Funny, huh?

Although we laughed a lot and and had some fun sing-alongs on our trip, there was one song that made me seriously cry.  I was riding in the back with Baby K and Steven looks in the rear view mirror and says "are you crying back there?" Honestly, I wasn't even paying attention to the song so I asked them to play it again.  When I was in H.S, I was a HUGE Kenny Chesney fan.  Like attended every concert when he came to Chatty, had keychains, posters, you name it- I know, dorko.  But honestly I don't really listen to him or much country music anymore so I wasn't familiar with the song. oh. my. word. talk about some serious bawling.  I don't know if it's a new song or if it's been out for a while, but it has become a new favorite.  It's one of those songs that makes you think about life, love, family, time, what's important, what's not so important, what I like to call a "reflective tune."  

I would post the lyrics but I think listening to the song (and watching the video waaahhh) is much better.  so take a few minutes and check it out.  

Be warned: You WILL Cry. 

If you are like me, you want to just freeze time where it is or maybe you even find yourself wanting to speed time up.  That's how I felt when Baby K (due to some awful baby blues) was first born and then Steven and I started talking about his mom (who left this earth in August) and how when "Forever Young" by good ole' Rod Stewart was released she would sing it to his brother (her first born who was about to graduate H.S) and cry.  I think the baby blues were then multiplied to like a million. I started uncontrollably sobbing about wishing time away with my newborn.  Sure, I was so incredibly tired from being in the hospital a week with no sleep and trying to adjust to motherhood with those crazy hormones added on top, but I realized real quick that Time, every second is precious. Let's just say I started treating every waking moment (even in the middle of the night) with a different attitude.  I think losing Steven's mom really made me realize not to take any moment in my life for granted- the good AND bad. 

Fast Forward almost 6 months. I find myself saying time PLEASE slow down! Because honestly I feel like I was 6 years old and I took a nap and now I'm 25 and don't even make me think about the better half of 50 years part- if you haven't listened to the song yet- DO IT NOW :) 

Seriously, I don't want to blink and miss out on important time or take all these precious moments for granted. Time with my mom and dad who just celebrated 30 years of marriage, my granddaddy who is 87 years young, my sister who will be graduating H.S soon, my big brother who is living far away so time with him really is rare and precious these days. All these people are so incredibly precious to me and time with them should be so valued.

And of course my two most important loves.  4 years of marriage already- really?!?! And a baby girl who's almost 6 months old?  I do look forward to the expansion of our family, but I want to just live in the present like there really is no tomorrow for now.  

How will you treat today differently?