GONE.

Gone. Like Elvis and his mom.  Gone. Like never coming back. Gone.  Like makes me sick. Gone.

What am I talking about?

(Big BIG Sigh)

Every picture, file of music, picture, word document, picture, video, picture, DID I MENTION PICTURE?!?! Yes, every single picture that has been taken in the past 6 years and was not printed or put on facebook or my blog is gone.

I figured if I blogged about it, it could be my therapy for coping with this huge tragedy.  The tragedy of my precious MacBook taking a very small tumble off my ottoman onto the hardwood.  Who knew my hard drive (Which I've never backed up, Yes, I'm kicking myself now) would totally fail and ALL my data would not be able to be recovered.  Apple products, unfortunately, are not indestructible.  I mean I am the one who recently left my iPhone on top of my car, then retrieved it when we noticed going 80 MPH down the interstate.  Fortunately this iPhone was not harmed.  I've been through 2 already and I promised the hubs this one would be my last.

Well, a BIG fee later, I have my MacBook back.  When I picked it up, the Tech told me how sorry he was and then started talking about something, but I quickly said, "I can't talk about it" then busted into tears.  Poor guys waiting on me didn't know what to do.  I paid and got out of there as soon as possible. Yes, there are many, many, many precious pics that are gone and will never be recovered, but I can't dwell on it anymore.  I may not have every single picture or video that I have captured of my sweet baby Kate, but that's not what really matters. Yes, I would have loved to have displayed her "watch me grow" pics at her first birthday or have them displayed nicely in a scrapbook (my stomach churns) but I never printed all of them off because they were so neatly stored in a special "Kate" folder on my desktop and in iPhoto. Major UGH.

I feel like Carrie in the SATC episode where her Mac crashes and due to lack of backing everything up she loses all her writings.  And everyone asks her, like she's an idiot if she says no, "you've got everything backed up, right?!" Uh, Nope.  Guess I never took that episode seriously.

Lesson learned- Back up all your stuff. (I'm not even going to tell you we own 2 external hard drives. Ugh!)


Yes, I love the convenience of digital film, but on the other hard I hate it because stuff like this can happen.  Remember when you would rush to get your pictures developed as soon as you finished a roll of film?! Then you had all your pics right there in your possession.  The good ole days.

but....


I've got one healthy baby girl and hubby that reminds what really matters in this life.  Yes, pictures are nice to have, but it's the here and now and the memories we are making and continue to make that really matter.  At least I keep telling myself that for now :)